Shock of a lifetime

I had an experience of a lifetime. On the 20th of June 2009, I came so close to death. Okay...maybe not that close. But it was close enough for me. It all happened during the scout campfire. I was supposed to help with the fire. All campfires must have a bonfire. So, i was asked to pour kerosene on a piece of cloth prepared for the fire to start. Just before it was time to light the flame, some wire that was prepared earlier snapped. We were frantically trying to fix it back while the speeches were being given.

Fortunately, we were able to fix it. However, when it was time to light the flame, i kinda panicked. I walked up to the middle of the 'perhimpunan' area and started to pour the kerosene. The cover or the lid of the kerosene bottle had holes in them. So i started to pour but it was kinda slow. Everyone was waiting for me. It was like you could feel everyone's eyes burning holes through your back.

To add to the pressure, people were like saying something in chinese. I was not sure if they were talking to me, asking me to hurry up or sth, i really don't know as i can't speak chinese. So i thought they were asking me to hurry up. So, i opened the lid and poured the kerosene. A little too much i guess. Then, the principal pulled the sword from the rock which was supposed to trigger the flame(the theme for the campfire was excalibur). It didn't work. The fire didn't start.

So, with my kerosene filled and coated hand, i lighted the cloth with the lighter. I just didn't think at the moment. More of i couldn't think. So when the cloth burst into flames, it was too big. I was just a few centimetres away from the cloth. I could feel the fire burst past me. My face and my hands felt extremely hot. At that time, everyone was cheering the flame on. The flame actually burst right in front of me. And my hands were filled with kerosene.

I didn't think it was such a big deal until later when i found out that i actually singed off a small part of my hair and my hand had a stinging pain. I realised that the fire had come that close to me, if not burn past me. But i was unharmed. I was fine. I really thank God for His protection over me. If not, i can't imagine what could have happened.

Dark Horse Rises

Kris Allen wins american idol!!!!!!!!!!!!!! To me, i personally think that kris deserves to win this competition. He's got a great voice and is a musical genius as well as a humble guy. It's refreshing to see someone like kris win american idol. When i first heard kris sing 'man in the mirror' i was like.....wow...this guy has a very nice voice but i never thought he would win. I was a danny gokey fan in the beginning. But after a while i felt like he didn't 'wow' me anymore. But don't get me wrong, he was still good. Just maybe he didn't blow me away as much as he blew others away. Kris on the other hand just kept on getting better and kept 'wowing' me. He has a very unique voice and i just love the way he sings.

Kris is a fantastic singer. Everytime he sings, he connects with everyone. His voice has this innocence and pureness abt it and i can feel it everytime he sings. The way he interprets songs and improvises on them is just.........amazing. kris is definitely a musical genius, someone i strive to be.

I feel happy that an underdog finally won. Throughout the whole season, everyone has been talking about adam and danny but in the end, kris emerged as the champion. It gives me hope that an underdog can rise up. So, congratulations to kris, a deserving champion. GO KRIS!!!!!

Heartache or a chance to stand up....

Today, i got scolded by a teacher and i was very affected by it. Maybe it was my fault too because i didn't pass my pen-drive to her earlier. And i didn't give her the maklumat ahli for the new students. But....these aren't my job anyway. Paperwork is supposed to be done by the secretary. And i am NOT the secretary.

She said that she was doing all the work and i was like not doing anything. I did do things for her. I ran around the school before trying to collect forms. I have done some computer work when it really isn't my job. She asked where was my responsibility. i really couldn't say anything.

Then she started to say that i can do things for the christian fellowship club but i won't do anything for her club. To me, i think i haven't done much for the CF this past few months. I feel like i have left everything to the assistant secretary and i feel bad abt it. But i am the secretary for CF and it is my job to do paperwork too. But i was not the secretary for her club.

I am actually the president and presidents have different responsibilities than a secretary. I mean, i am new at all this things too but from what i know, secretaries were the ones supposed to do paperwork. Correct me if i am wrong.

But the worst of all was when she said that she didn't think that i was a good christian. T_T
This really hurt me. She could have said that i was a lousy president or sth instead of saying sth like that. After that i just sat at my seat and drowned myself in my mathematics homework. I hope nobody noticed but my eyes were teary as i did my maths. I was really holding back tears.

It all really got me to thinking. What if she was right? What if it was all my fault, that i was lazy, irresponsible and an extremely bad president. That i couldn't get things done on time. What if i really did suck.

I guess i shouldn't let this affect me but take this chance to rise up and gain confidence. I know it'll take time to get over all that she said but i think with God's help i can do it.

An archulicious day....

For the first time in my life, i attended a concert
(wasn't a real concert. It was a showcase actually). The day before i actually gave up all hope of going coz these tickets can't be bought. They can only be won thru radio stations and newspapers and stuff. For example, flyfm. the 7th caller thru will win the tickets. I just tried and managed to get thru. I actually was talking to the DJ. So cool but i was caller number 1!!!!!

Then came my friend Mary who actually managed to win two tickets and invited me to go along. I was super excited but at the same time i felt guilty. I actually have school on that day. So i had to choose between school and the showcase ( and i have never ponteng school b4). So, that night i was getting cold feet. But i knew it was kinda like a chance of a lifetime.

We reached the sunway lagoon amphitheatre at 11.30 a.m. We thought we were early but nooooooo. The queue was extremely long. My mum and uncle went to buy food for us and on their way they found 4 tickets on the road!!! Unbelievable. But we kinda felt bad for the people who lost it (at least i did).

Well, i definitely do not regret my decision now. I had a blast! Finally, i got to see someone i admire do a live performance. his voice really soars when you hear it live. i admire his great voice, his down to earth, bashful personality and his piano playing skills. However, he only sang 6 songs and two of them were sung with the piano. It was great while it lasted but it was too short. It left me wanting more. There was no autograph session so i could not meet him in person. i really wanted to ask him a few questions and just talk.

Stage at Sunway Lagoon Amphitheatre

People crowding in the amphitheatre


I know many people may say that im like obsessed or something but i'm NOT. i just admire his voice. his voice is the kind of voice i would love to have. And he seems like a nice guy. he is just someone i look up to. Although there are some things that i do not agree with(i'm not going into the details right now).

I just wished i had been able to meet him in person. Maybe some time in the future i will be able to meet him. i will just keep hoping but anyhow i have had a great time at the showcase.

LOSER....

he was tugging at it. applying pressure. he pulled and twisted it. I could feel the pain. It hurt really badly. I screamed soo loud it went into ultrasound. He didn't care. He laughed wickedly. he didn't care. he kept pulling and pulling. And then it flew out. I closed my eyes. It was over....

That is the exaggerated version of my meeting with the dentist. Okay, he didn't like tug and pull so crazily but he did pull my tooth out. I didn't scream coz when your mouth is wide open and numb due to the anesthesia, you can't really say anything. he definitely did not laugh wickedly (he is actually really nice). But the tooth did fly out. i saw it.

Well, i had to extract 4 of my teeth. Braces. I can't imagine myself with braces. But soon, i will not have to imagine. If anyone is asking, i'm putting braces NOT for beautiful looking teeth but for health purposes (yea rite...). I mean...that is the noble explanation of it. Of course part of the reason is to have nice teeth.

I went for a haircut lately and i was telling my bro that i've been losing stuff this week. My teeth and now my hair. And he replied, " unfortunately not your weight. " So mean rite? I just hope that becoz of the braces, i would be able to lose some weight. At least.

Well, i just have one favour to ask from everyone. DON'T LAUGH. =)

Superhuman

When you don't fit in, you become superhuman. You can feel everyone else's eyes on you, stuck like Velcro. You can hear a whisper about you from a mile away. You can disappear, even when it looks like you're still standing right there. You can scream, and nobody hears a sound.

You become the mutant who fell into a vat of acid, the Joker who can't remove his mask, the bionic man who's missing all his limbs and none of his heart.

You are the thing that used to be normal, but that was so long ago, you can't even remember what it was like.

by Jodi Piccoult.


This passage really explains everything. I feel that many people don't feel like they fit in. But i think that it is just nonsense. Why do we have to be separated into groups; the 'in' and 'out'. We are all different and special in our own way. We shouldn't brand people or form clicks. Why must we divide ourselves? When there is no 'in' then there will be no 'out' and when there is no 'out' then there will be no 'in'. I know this is very subjective but this is kinda how i feel. It is something that may never change. But what i know is that we should not change just to fit in with the crowd but just be ourselves, special and unique and that is all that matters.

handcuffed and put away....

Finally the thief has been caught. Okay here's the story. i am working at the koperasi in school. we sell newspapers for extra income. so, since this year...when the newspaper came there would always be less. We couldn't figure it out. We asked the supplier (well, the teachers did...not us students but that's beside the point) and he said he gave the correct amount. So we concluded that someone was stealing them.

So, i went early on that day but the newspapers came late...so we couldn't catch anyone. But the next day....i saw, with my own eyes. He just took it and walked across the assembly ground to his class. I couldn't believe it. It was happening right in front of my eyes. So i followed him and asked his classmate for his name and reported to teacher. Cool. It feels like CSI or sth. Well, not exactly. But it was sth different.

Special thanks to my friends too for following me to the 'spy headquarters' that day.