Dark Horse Rises

Kris Allen wins american idol!!!!!!!!!!!!!! To me, i personally think that kris deserves to win this competition. He's got a great voice and is a musical genius as well as a humble guy. It's refreshing to see someone like kris win american idol. When i first heard kris sing 'man in the mirror' i was like.....wow...this guy has a very nice voice but i never thought he would win. I was a danny gokey fan in the beginning. But after a while i felt like he didn't 'wow' me anymore. But don't get me wrong, he was still good. Just maybe he didn't blow me away as much as he blew others away. Kris on the other hand just kept on getting better and kept 'wowing' me. He has a very unique voice and i just love the way he sings.

Kris is a fantastic singer. Everytime he sings, he connects with everyone. His voice has this innocence and pureness abt it and i can feel it everytime he sings. The way he interprets songs and improvises on them is just.........amazing. kris is definitely a musical genius, someone i strive to be.

I feel happy that an underdog finally won. Throughout the whole season, everyone has been talking about adam and danny but in the end, kris emerged as the champion. It gives me hope that an underdog can rise up. So, congratulations to kris, a deserving champion. GO KRIS!!!!!

Heartache or a chance to stand up....

Today, i got scolded by a teacher and i was very affected by it. Maybe it was my fault too because i didn't pass my pen-drive to her earlier. And i didn't give her the maklumat ahli for the new students. But....these aren't my job anyway. Paperwork is supposed to be done by the secretary. And i am NOT the secretary.

She said that she was doing all the work and i was like not doing anything. I did do things for her. I ran around the school before trying to collect forms. I have done some computer work when it really isn't my job. She asked where was my responsibility. i really couldn't say anything.

Then she started to say that i can do things for the christian fellowship club but i won't do anything for her club. To me, i think i haven't done much for the CF this past few months. I feel like i have left everything to the assistant secretary and i feel bad abt it. But i am the secretary for CF and it is my job to do paperwork too. But i was not the secretary for her club.

I am actually the president and presidents have different responsibilities than a secretary. I mean, i am new at all this things too but from what i know, secretaries were the ones supposed to do paperwork. Correct me if i am wrong.

But the worst of all was when she said that she didn't think that i was a good christian. T_T
This really hurt me. She could have said that i was a lousy president or sth instead of saying sth like that. After that i just sat at my seat and drowned myself in my mathematics homework. I hope nobody noticed but my eyes were teary as i did my maths. I was really holding back tears.

It all really got me to thinking. What if she was right? What if it was all my fault, that i was lazy, irresponsible and an extremely bad president. That i couldn't get things done on time. What if i really did suck.

I guess i shouldn't let this affect me but take this chance to rise up and gain confidence. I know it'll take time to get over all that she said but i think with God's help i can do it.