loneliness....sometimes my friend

i'm sure everyone has felt lonely before...i sure have felt lonely many many times before. The thing about loneliness is that it comes at anytimeand anywhere. You may be in a crowd but you can still feel lonely. you can hide it from the world by putting a facade or even a smile but the fact is...it eats you up inside. It makes you feel useless and hopeless and not wanted. i have felt like i never really fit in before..i mean....I use to feel so happy and secure but sometimes it just comes...this loneliness. I try to strengthen my relationship with my friends but sometimes it seems to be a one-way effort. I try finding them in school ...to hang out and talk but it was never the other way around. Maybe i am just paranoid or maybe a little nuts but i can't seem to get over it. I have friends who do stick by me no matter what. But why do i still feel lonely? Why do i still feel like i am alone in this world? Deep down inside i know i am not alone. I know that my friends are always there for me. I know they will help me pick up the pieces. well, maybe i just need time...this loneliness...it will go away....right? Yes. I know that God has a purpose for me in life...I am not alone....

my first entry....
just wanna let you know a little abt me..

i have felt....
happy
sad
angry
frustrated
overwhelmed
depressed
stupid
useless
hopeless
unloved
loved
alone
unworthy
unsure
insecure
not good enough
lazy
confused

i am......
quiet
crazy
weird
mean
sarcastic
introvert
noisy
funny

i try not to be....
proud
selfish
rude
lazy
fake
annoying

i try to be
the best i can be
real
friendly
good
hardworking
caring
a good friend
helpful
someone ppl can trust
someone ppl can depend on

i guess my friends would know me too..
i would like to know what else you guys think of me...
then i can add it to my list...
so let me know ok?....